How does one "keep on truckin'" when they have lost their best friend, the love of their life, the one person that could pull you out of the doldrums with just a word or two or a smile? It's often been asked and answered "What is the one thing that you love about your partner best?" The number one answer was "He/she makes me laugh!"
These last couple months I have been keeping myself busy cleaning, going through cupboards and taking unnecessary stuff to the local charity drop-off and setting up my home to my liking. I am very near to getting all of the list of Projects done. YAY! But what next?
I still have good days and bad days. Some days a word or image or something triggers the tears and I cry and cry and cry. Other days I tell myself "you got this!" and I carry on like I really do. I remember before my Jim passed on we use to tease each other about who would go first saying that one could not live without the other. After over 50 years together neither of us could truly imagine what life would be like without the other by our side. But here I am, the one left behind, alone and sad.
Lately, I have noticed that I am starting to talk to myself or sometimes I laugh out loud when a thought filters through my mind that I apparently find funny. Then I wonder if I am going crazy? I have never in my whole life ever lived alone and I am not familiar with what is the correct behavior for a new widow. Does anybody really know?
Well, I'm going to take a wild guess here and say YES it's okay to talk to yourself, it's okay to laugh out loud and it's okay to be you whatever that may be. My advice this blog is just to accept your life one day at a time and keep on living and loving .... reach out to your family, your friends, your feelings and embrace this new unchartered life! Everyone says it gets easier as time moves on!
Kathie's K.I.S.S.
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| Laughter is the BEST medicine. |
