In the beginning...

The first time I saw the Dude, I was still in my teens, awed by life and feeling invincible.  I stood in the doorway of the downtown San Diego neighborhood beer bar called Broadway's Beer Bar, that my friend Glenn owned, scanning the occupants looking for someone when my eyes suddenly locked onto the gorgeous blond hunk leaning over the pool table.  He was playing alone. My heart skipped a beat then resumed beating at a faster pace picking up speed as I slowly walked inside.

I was glad I was wearing sunglasses and my favorite dress, a forest green scooped neck mini with delicate silver chains looped from side to side down the front bodice.  My long blonde hair, which hung straight, as was the style in the sixties, tickling the small of my back, was parted in the middle .  The blond 'greek God' looked up, his eyes never left mine as he successfully completed his break shot, then he winked at me and smiled.  I smiled back. The rest as they "is history".

Our history, our love, our lives together over the last 49 years have had their ups and downs like all couples have filled with challenges and choices.   We did not choose Cancer, it seems it chose us.  For the last four months we have lived in Emergency Rooms, Doctors' offices and various Laboratories where Dude has undergone a series of tests and procedures pinpointing his diagnosis.  Incurable Cancer.  After getting over the initial shock we have accepted our destiny.  We pray for peace, search for hope and vow to keep 'our love' healthy.

I first started this blog, encouraged by my daugther, back in 2011 when we were nooby retirees .  After only one post I then got busy with life, virtual worlds and internet games and began blogging about my fantasy avatar, Sunbeam Magic, instead.                               

I had completely forgotten I had even started this eBlog.  It was originally called "Magical Mystical Moments".  Cancer is not magical nor mystical so I changed the name of this blog and decided to journal this trip, record some of our history, as we navigate through the deep emotions and strong tides pulling us out of our comfort zone into this riptide called Cancer.